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Friday, November 13, 2009,9:09 AM

Do you rememberrrrrr

I have the emptiest state of mind. I really, really do. I see myself as this loner, who has really no one but herself. Even though, I don't really do anything to make things better. Having this angry, lost type of feeling, it's really dissapointing. I don't complain about it too much, but I'm always so mad at myself. As if the world is pushing so much burdens on me. I blame all the negativity, and all the series of events that have happened in the past few months. I cry sometimes thinking that things CAN get worse, and it's tiring. Like, how come it's all come down to this now ? It's like I'm on the verge of losing myself. I hate it. Some people just can't see it. They think it's just pathetic and pointless. While there are others out there, that get it. They know how it feels to be alone and have no one else helping you up again. Everyday I always think about all the things that happened in the recent or the past. I get so mad because it's either dissapointed me or made me cry. And there's absolutely nothing I can do to go back and fix it. Not that I want to, but if I knew how to fix things then, I would totally do so. Sometimes I wish that I can stop putting so much on myself, but I don't know anymore. I really don't.