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Saturday, April 4, 2009,2:14 AM

why

'Cause everybody knows, but nobody really knows.
It's odd how when you do something wrong, and you can't even
put the blame on yourself.
Hmph, I guess I'm like that sometimes.. I don't have a
tendency to admit it.. but, I suppose its true.. coming
from my peers and loved ones...
That's something I need to work on.
I've realized it takes a looooot for me to suck in life
lessons.. I'm usually selfish about it, and I try to
point it at another direction - and that causes people
to give me this look: ^o)
I usually do something about it, after I get sick of
dealing with it continously. Then, you see a good change :]
But, I'm probably a scared mouse. Too scared to come out of
my little mousehole and grab the cheese. (LOL, Yes Alyssa,
another one of my life-living metaphors)
Instead.. I grab other people's cheeses' ..rather than finding
one of my own.
I don't like myself for not taking blame on my own problems.
I feel bad for spazzing at my mom and somewhat making her cry,
when all she wanted to know what was going on between me and *cough*
I hate when I dissapoint the right people.
Honestly, I'm not the happiest little lady of life right now,
but I know I can get through this damn obstical course ;] (YES
GUARIN, another motherfucking metaphooooor !)

Labels: cheese, methaphors, mouse